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When You Realize Writing is Not Actually Your Dream

I saw the invite – a save the date, really – and immediately checked my calendar to make sure the day was still free. It was the last time I checked (when there was only the hint of an event), but I had to be certain.

Because when Emily Freeman started talking about this Barn event – an afternoon At the Barn with her family and a relatively small gathering to spend time in soul-encouraging conversation about art, dreams, goals – all I could think was YES.

I’m in.

when you realize writing is not actually your dream

But as I purchased the ticket, I couldn’t help but also stop and think about how I now find myself taking all kinds of risks (of the best kind) with community and events and opportunities – like spending an afternoon with a bunch of fellow blog readers or spending five days getting Wrecked in Guatemala with complete strangers … and then doing it again six months later. All because of this gift of blogging which began as an extension of this gift of writing.

And it’s all in the very same season that I find myself pulling back on the frequency of posts and re-evaluating the purpose of this space.

A couple of months ago, I wasn’t even sure if I should continue blogging. This community is small and I’m not always convinced my words are necessary additions to the noise of this world.

But this community is also growing, and opportunities keep crossing my path to connect with other artists and other Jesus-followers as a result.

And I just know.

It’s not time to give-up this blogging thing yet.

Someday, God may ask that of me, but as I’ve been praying over and carefully considering whether or not that time is now, although the sitting-still long enough to think and write has been hard lately, I find I’m not finished here yet.

I want this space to be a place of restful harbor, filled with peace, where God speaks.

And more than anything, I want to honor and glorify Him in and through it.

So this community is small and the growth is slow.

But it’s His. And it’s good.

I began this blog a little over three years ago with a thought in the back of my mind that someday I might like to publish a book of some sort, but I could go ahead and start blogging without knowing if that would ever happen. I could begin sharing the message that the Lord had placed on my heart. I didn’t have to wait for that.

But somewhere along the way, I began to realize that while writing is a part of me and is a craft that I both love and enjoy, writing (or perhaps more specifically, publishing) wasn’t actually my dream.

The only problem? I didn’t know what was.

But all I knew to do was to keep writing, to keep taking small steps in obedience and faithfulness, and to keep seeking the Lord’s face.

Because that’s always right.

And through the writing, I kept sensing that there was something in all of this, something that I couldn’t quite figure out, something that I still needed to learn.

So now in this season, as my dreams and goals for this life are shifted and refined, I’m beginning to see at least a part of that something.

I’ve sought hard and waited long for the sort of dream I’m now beginning to consider. The one that in intentionally broad and vague terms revolves around orphan care (and no, I don’t know exactly what that means or what it will look like), the one that is so far beyond me and my ability, the one that scares the heck out of me, and the one that feels more like a God-whisper than anything I could dare to imagine on my own.

I’m not against the idea of publishing if that’s where the Lord leads and I suspect this won’t be the last times my dreams undergo some refining, but I also know this dream that’s slowly unveiling finally feels like mine. Like something only the Lord could have orchestrated and begun to reveal. And that makes it worth wanting and working toward and continuing to figure out … because it’s really only just a glimpse of a fuller vision. A hint of what could be.

So I’ll continue to write and I’ll continue to blog in this space.

And I’ll continue to lead and encourage this community to draw near to Christ.

To seek Him more. To know Him more. To trust Him more. To rest in Him more.

Because nothing – no amount of dreaming regardless of how right the dream seems – in this life matters more.

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Speak Truth

speak truth

My love language is a near tie between “words of affirmation” and “quality time”, but as one who identifies as a writer and puts a lot of thought into word choice, words tend to mean a lot to me.

So recently, as several people in my community (both near and far) have taken the time and made the effort to make generous and genuine investments by speaking words of encouragement, affirmation, and Biblical truth into and over my life, to say I have been incredibly beyond blessed would be a serious understatement.

And I can’t not come away from those conversations – sometimes lengthy and sometimes quite short – changed by the encounter and seeking out opportunities to make the same investment in others.

There is such tremendous power in your words.

So the next time you sense the Lord prompting you to speak truth into the life of someone around you, by all means do it. And keep your eyes and heart open to the opportunities He so often provides.

Send an encouraging note … facebook messages work, too!

Go out for coffee and listen more than you talk.

Tell someone you’re praying for them … and tell them specifically what you’re praying.

Better yet, offer to pray on the spot.

Give a compliment that may seem too obvious … it may mean the world that you noticed.

Affirm someone’s actions that clearly align with Scripture … you may be the voice of encouragement in the very area they’re feeling discouraged.

Speak truth.

And if you’ve been one of those people in my life recently, THANK YOU! I am deeply grateful and forever changed. Keep listening to the Lord and speaking truth to those around you. Your words make a difference.

“And let us consider how to stir up one another to love and good works, not neglecting to meet together, as is the habit of some, but encouraging one another, and all the more as you see the Day drawing near.”
Hebrews 10:24-25

Bloggity Blog Blogroll

{update: the “bloggity blog blogroll” has been officially re-named to just plain old boring “blogroll” and can be found in the footer…thanks for understanding!}

In my very first blog post, I alluded to the fact that I can’t do anything without significant thought and planning (although I have recently come to the conclusion that what I tend to label “careful consideration” can quickly become “procrastination” and is no longer all that beneficial…but that’s another post for another day).

One aspect of this blog that I spent [perhaps too] much time considering was the title.  My roommate, B, must have heard me utter about nine thousand different ideas before I finally decided on one that fit.

So when I asked her if she would read my blog, it’s no wonder she responded with,

“I don’t need to read your blog.  I live your blog!”

Ha!  But she does read my blog.  Sometimes.  When she hasn’t lived it.  Or I haven’t bored her with all the details that didn’t even make it into the post.

But if it had been up to B, my blog would have been named:

The Bloggity Blog Blog

Profound, isn’t it?

Well, ultimately I didn’t choose that title, but after [again, perhaps too] much thought and consideration, I am happy to introduce a new venture on this here blog:

The Bloggity Blog Blogroll

Found in the sidebar to the right, this is by no means an exhaustive list of the many wonderful blogs that I frequent, and it could change over time, but hopefully it will give you a better sense of who I am and what interests me in the grander scheme of the blogging community.

Hope you enjoy!