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{Day 31} It’s About Resting More

“Behold, a king will reign righteously … And the work of righteousness will be peace, and the service of righteousness, quietness and confidence forever.”

Isaiah 32:1, 17 (NASB)

It’s only in the quietness of soul … in the peace, in the rest … that perspective is rightly restored to full confidence in Him.

Because when my mind is working on overdrive, when I’ve got a tight grip on my own future plans, when I don’t make the effort to stop and spend time with Him, when I let go of the quiet, I believe the lie that I can do this on my own.

But in the quiet, I recognize my desperate need for Him. For His direction. For His peace. For His presence.

And from that place, I lean into Him. I trust Him. I depend on Him in full confidence. Because He is. And He always will be.

This quiet confidence … this life … it’s not about trying harder. It’s about resting more.

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{Day 30} Fix Your Hope

“Therefore, prepare your minds for action, keep sober in spirit, fix your hope completely on the grace to be brought to you at the revelation of Jesus Christ.”

1 Peter 1:13 (NASB)

Hope. Faith. Confidence.

In Christ alone.

In His grace. In His promises. In His faithfulness.

“Oh, my hope is in the Lord, forevermore…”

{Day 25} I Wish I Could Tell You…

“But he said to me, ‘My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.’ Therefore I will boast all the more gladly of my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ may rest upon me.”

2 Corinthians 12:9 (ESV)

I wish I could tell you that after reading that email and realizing this was not going as I had expected (um, at all), I immediately got on my knees before the Lord in quiet confidence, acknowledged His sovereignty, laid my heart out before him, and entrusted the “what now?” to Him.

But I didn’t.

Oh, ultimately I did get before the Lord, but only after first reacting rather poorly. Seriously. In that moment, on that day, I was a hot mess about the whole thing. Just ask my mother.

And in the next several days that followed, I was anything but confident … in the Lord’s direction thus far, in my ability to hear His voice, in how to discern where He was leading next, in how to follow His plan.

I was spiritually and mentally exhausted.

But His grace was sufficient in the midst of that weakness … my weakness.

{Day 24} You Have to Know French

“And now, Lord, for what do I wait? My hope is in You.”

Psalm 39:7 (NASB)

What was I supposed to do with that?!?

Well, I did take a breath, and then I sought clarification.

I sent an email back to my placement coordinator, once again pointing out the specific position that I had initially inquired about.

It wasn’t that I had no interest in changing my ministry focus if that was where the Lord was leading (and I was desperately trying to figure out where, exactly, He was leading in all of this), but at the same time, I felt no peace about completely turning away from a specific ministry aspect that was part of the initial position that had first compelled me to pursue this process in the beginning.

And her response to the clarification:

“I saw this one, but you have to know French well!”

Since I don’t know French at all, that certainly changed everything. . .

{Day 16} Praise in the Midst

“I will give thanks to the Lord with my whole heart; I will recount all of your wonderful deeds. I will be glad and exult in you; I will sing praise to your name, O Most High.

The Lord is a stronghold for the oppressed, a stronghold in times of trouble. And those who know your name put their trust in you, for you, O Lord, have not forsaken those who seek you.”

Psalm 9:1-2 & 9-10 (ESV)

From the journal . . .

I’ve been reading through the Psalms again this summer. Slowly. Sometimes reading barely a few verses before stumbling on a promise that I so desperately need to hear and savor.

Barely twenty chapters in, I have noticed again just how much praise and thanksgiving the Psalmist offers to the Lord in the midst of despair, heartache, fear, unknown, tragedy, and legitimate danger – even possible death at the hand of his enemies.

How easy it is in the midst of such hard circumstances to turn our eyes away from the Lord and focus all our attention on the circumstance itself.

But as we cry out in desperation, as we turn to the Lord with our complaints and frustrations and anguish, may we never forget to praise in the midst.

And in that praise, as we surrender once again and allow the Lord to take over our hearts and lives, as we acknowledge His continual presence in every circumstance, as we recognize His hand that guides, may we find perspective restored, soul refreshed, and trust renewed.

{Day 1} 31 Days of Quiet Confidence

**for individual links to each day in this series, go here**

“Behold, a king will reign righteously … And the work of righteousness will be peace, and the service of righteousness, quietness and confidence forever.”

Isaiah 32:1, 17 (NASB)

Earlier this year, I began a faith adventure that was simultaneously terrifying and crazy exciting when I began an application process with an evangelical international missions organization to explore serving overseas with them on a short-term basis for 2 years.

I chose to be silent in this space because it just didn’t seem right to share in real time while I was processing mentally, discerning spiritually, and seeking to follow Christ for each “next step” of the process. Not to mention, I chose to keep a relatively small circle of those family, friends, pastors, and mentors around me who knew as well.

I’ve gone back and forth as to whether I should share this story now (or even at all), but the prayer of my heart from the very beginning … my deepest desire in this life, really … was, and still is, to know God more, to lean into His Son Jesus Christ, to follow Him with my all, and to make His name known for His fame and His glory.

Although ultimately this application process came to a close a couple of months ago as we parted ways prior to any formal training or placement, that prayer can’t be answered if I hide the story. The only way for God’s glory to be recognized in all that He’s done through the process (and is continuing to do) is to share it.

I would love to tell you that I handled each unknown twist and turn of this almost-six-month experience with both quietness of spirit and confidence of heart, but that is just not the truth.

Yet even in my moments of imperfect (and often lacking) faith, the Lord has been continually drawing me into a deeper confidence in Him. And it’s only as He leads me to abandon my own plans and come to a place of complete dependence on and trust in Him that my soul is able to experience the quietness and rest that it so desperately craves.

And that’s what I hope to share with you over the next 31 days – don’t worry, it will be broken up into small and manageable pieces.

It’s my story … though really, it’s HIS story … of deeply rooted faith and trust in the sufficiency and sovereignty of Jesus Christ, of beyond-the-intellectual belief that leads to obedience, of following hard after Him even when it’s challenging, and of fixing my eyes on Him for the quiet confidence that only He can give.

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**linking up with the Nester’s community of 31 Day participants here.**