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{Day 25} I Wish I Could Tell You…

“But he said to me, ‘My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.’ Therefore I will boast all the more gladly of my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ may rest upon me.”

2 Corinthians 12:9 (ESV)

I wish I could tell you that after reading that email and realizing this was not going as I had expected (um, at all), I immediately got on my knees before the Lord in quiet confidence, acknowledged His sovereignty, laid my heart out before him, and entrusted the “what now?” to Him.

But I didn’t.

Oh, ultimately I did get before the Lord, but only after first reacting rather poorly. Seriously. In that moment, on that day, I was a hot mess about the whole thing. Just ask my mother.

And in the next several days that followed, I was anything but confident … in the Lord’s direction thus far, in my ability to hear His voice, in how to discern where He was leading next, in how to follow His plan.

I was spiritually and mentally exhausted.

But His grace was sufficient in the midst of that weakness … my weakness.


{Day 10} Show Me What’s Next

“Let us then with confidence draw near to the throne of grace, that we may receive mercy and find grace to help in time of need.”

Hebrews 4:16 (ESV)

After several weeks of praying over and wrestling with questions regarding my personal testimony, faith, theology, and background, with the simple click of a button (along with a few technical difficulties and multiple application fees that would be sorted out a few days later…), all of my character references had been secured and the application to the missions organization was officially completed.

And my prayer at that time was simply this:

Lord, show me what’s next. Not the 20-years-down-the-road place (and guard my heart from that desire), but the next. Give me the passion, the endurance, the confidence in You to live for You even in the now. Fill me with more of Your presence that I might represent You well. And show me what’s next…



“Gracious Sovereignty”

“Is it the same when a Christian wakes up to the fact that he has missed God’s guidance and taken the wrong way? Is the damage irrevocable? Must he now be put off course for life? Thank God, no. Our God is a God who not merely restores, but takes up our mistakes and follies into his plan for us and brings good out of them.

“This is part of the wonder of his gracious sovereignty. . .The Jesus who restored Peter after his denial and corrected his course more than once after that, is our Savior today and he has not changed.”

– J.I. Packer (Knowing God)